Understand

Why cant anyone understand what is going on? Why cant people see into every ones intents and decide if what they do is selfish or unjust? How could things be unequal then? How could we not see good people and gather around them knowing that whatever they do it will be for our good or for the good of all. Is this what makes God a god? Is it his ability to know why people do things? Is it to always do the right for all even if that hurts an individual? Is it his calculating ability to plan out all that is going to happen and make it so? I so wish that I could show people my intentions and let them know I try hard to do things that seem fair. Fair to all. But we really cant do that. We cant know what is going to happen so we cant do what is best for all. We just cant do what will bring everyone happiness in the end. We can only do what we feel will bring us happiness. True happiness not this fake feeling that is ever fleeting that leaves us craving more. Not that happiness but the happiness that never leaves us wanting but always stays feeling enough and feeling full. This is what we need and it will never happen unless we can ask with a sincere heart what is fair to me and fair to my God. I never intend to be unfair but only to do what will make me and my God happy.
In this life there is no unwavering happiness. Everything is fleeting but one. That is peace. Peace is the only thing that we can have that is ours and cant be taken away. Peace that we have done what is right and that what we are is who we are supposed to be. Even that isn't how we can obtain peace. We can just go to the road that God has created for us and follow it and we will have peace. Always moving forward with faith. Moving to godliness. That is peace. And through faith we have peace.
Sometimes we lose sight of that, and we have to rectify our mistake, even at the cost of others. That is the price of losing that path. We lose the right to have what we want for a time. Until we can faithfully say that our will is Gods will we cant have everything we want.